I opened my dark green celtic-cross decorated journal to a page dated June 20, 2007. The multiple exclamation point dotted entry is 6 pages long! One section that jumps out at me is prefaced with the words, "Flour & Oil". It must be referring to the woman in 1 Kings 17 who used the last of her flour and oil to make a meal for the prophet Elijah, even though it was all she had.
My journal entry reads:
"As I enter the sanctuary or wherever, I don't need to know why or what is going to happen. Just a matter of saying, 'Here I am father, with what little I have; myself and my time. You do what you want with them. The job is yours to make something out of the ingredients. Here I am!"
This was a difficult lesson for me because I am a planner, as my poor spontaneous friends know. I am not good with the whole..."lets just play it by ear" thing. I like advance notice with time, date and place all worked out before hand. :)
So entering a time of prayer or worship, I like to know the goal, the hoped for accomplishment at the end.
Guess what.....God is not real big on telling me that info!
He just wants me, and He just wants you to enter His presence and be OPEN.
There are times of intentional agenda driven prayer times, yes. But this is something different. It is walking into a "quiet time" agenda-less and a desire to listen and then follow directions.
Here we are Lord. A new day to walk with You and bask in your love and goodness. We are listening.......