Random Journal Day description and link-up found at Beneath The Surface: Breath of Faith.
My journal opened to August 31, 1999.
On the pages I am describing a morning chat I had with the Hubs. It was in a season when we got up extra early every morning and drove to the church sanctuary to pray for an hour before beginning our day.
After returning to our house I was heading to go take a shower and Hubs suggested we sit with our coffee and talk a bit first. He asked me if I was OK. Tears filled my eyes as I whispered that I had not felt God's presence for two days and it scared me.
This wonderful man that I married laughed at me! He gently said, "Susie, you used to go for weeks and months without feeling Him and it didn't bother you then. This just shows how much closer you are to Him now. And this morning at the church you worshiped Him anyway. I think that God delights in the worship that comes in the middle of hard times even more than the easy worship. That is true faith!"
I instantly felt better.
In those days we had a strong emphasis on the tangible "feeling" of God's presence. It was a physical sense of His closeness and we loved it more than anything else in our lives. Sometimes I did not want to leave the sanctuary for hours on end because that warm and comforting presence was so overwhelming and delicious.
God was teaching us about Himself and letting us taste His unconditional love. He graciously allowed us to know what it felt like to be enveloped by his presence and goodness. We learned to carry that sense with us out into "the world". But my greatest happiness was inside the sanctuary alone with him.
Today I know His closeness in a different way. It is not as physical or tangible, but just as real and true. Now I walk with the knowledge that God is close to me at all times whether I feel Him or not. It is simply a fact of life.
But I do not take it for granted.
I am thankful for the moments when I just know that someone must be praying for me because I feel a sudden rush of being loved, or contentment that I did not feel the moment before. Maybe He simply lifts the earthly barrier or clears our eyes to see what is already there all the time. I don't know. But those small glimpses of God are to be treasured and cherished.
No, I do not take them for granted.
God is here. He is close to me in this moment.
God is close to you in this moment.
Savor that truth. Take a deep breath and know that the God of the universe is near you right now.