Friday, June 5, 2015

One Year Ago | Random Journal Day


One year ago this month my journal was generously peppered with exclamation points!!! We were living in a tiny town in California in a house we'd been in for nearly 20 years. I loved our home there. We had made it warm and cozy, if you avoided certain spots. 

Packing boxes surrounded us last June. The moving van was due to arrive on June 25th to take away all of our belongings and store it until we found a new place to live in Texas near our son and his wife. In the meantime we would be staying with them. 

So when we had scheduled the moving van we did not know how long we might be living out of suitcases at our kid's house. Our plan was that if it took longer than one month to find a home we loved, we would move into a temporary rental while house-hunting. We knew we were leaving but not sure how long we would be "homeless." 

Of course I had been house-hunting online for many months, trying to figure out what we wanted and what areas looked good. I stumbled across this house and asked our Texas realtor, our DIL's sister, to look into it. Sadly she reported back that it was in process with some solid buyers already. And then, came her email that the deal fell through and it was available again! We made an offer that was accepted and TADA! We bought a house almost 2,000 miles away, sight-unseen, other than a short walk-through video the kids did for us. !!!


The movers came on the 25th and we left California on the 26th with our suitcases and our dog and took a fun 3 day road trip through areas I had never seen. Loved it! We arrived at our son and DIL's home on June 29th, happy and excited to see where this adventure would take us. FINALLY, as you can see in the above journal entry, on July 3rd we walked through our new home for the first time. The previous owners were still there and not packed at all, so it was awkward and odd...but oh so sweet. 

I remember standing at the bedroom window and when my eyes took in the gorgeous swimming pool in the backyard, they filled with tears and my hand shot up to my mouth in wonder. 

We moved into our new home on July 19th and the movers arrived on July 20th. Perfect! 


This last photo is my journal entry after living here for 6 weeks and I can say that today after being here for almost a whole year I would still say the exact same things. We are still delighted and blessed and thankful for this lovely home and yard and neighborhood. In fact, we keep finding more reasons to know that God was part of this move in ways we had no clue about. He SO protected us from a huge mess. We never checked out the neighborhood or flood levels or much of anything. Our kids were not familiar with this town 30 minutes away from them. We explore it now and just love it more and more. In the recent record breaking storms there have been many areas damaged by flash floods, but not our corner of this city. Even though there is a creek right behind our home!

As I skim through my journal of that season, the !!! stand out to me of course, but I am once again overwhelmed at the goodness of God. I will say it again, we did not FEEL Him at all. We felt alone, empty and lost. We had no idea what to do next and we saw this move as a default maneuver at best. When you feel like you have no clear direction from above, you just wing it and hope for the best. THAT was our big "mission statement". OK here goes nothing...I recall Hubs telling someone that this was either the smartest thing we've ever done or the dumbest. Had no clue which.

I hope that this story can be an encouragement to you if you are in that lost and confused season, as we were. God is close. He is beside you, behind you and above you. He might be moving obstacles out of your way or putting some in your way as you stumble around trying to find your path. God knows you. I do not know why He stays quiet sometimes. I just don't. Drives me crazy and makes decision making a difficult task. But know that He knows. Know that He cares. Know that He loves.

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14 comments:

  1. I SO love this story! It's one of the fairy tales that truly has a happily ever after ending! I am so happy for you and hubs and Layla and the kids and the pool and everything!!! And especially that the recent storms did not reach your door. (floods/tornadoes, etc.) God is good. He hears our prayers. Love this story. THank you.

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    1. Thanks Pam. I am realizing that this is a prime example of seeing God's hand after the fact. We all read so many amazing stories and automatically picture the people walking through it with huge peace and faith, but sometimes they limped through it, second guessing all the way.

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  2. This is the third attempt to comment and I am typing away in a Word document and going to copy and paste it into the comments. Ha! I feel like a Spy or something...BUT, this post is beautiful on so many levels. I am in awe of your journey. I am grateful to continue to call you my friend, although now, I have to say my Texan friend, Susie, not my Cally Friend...oh well. I love the comment you wrote saying you feel like you are in someone else's house. I get that. I sometimes feel that way about life, yet He gives good gifts for us...in our seasons, and we rejoice in His provision. I continue to rejoice in your journey of life and writing and all of the good things He has given. Continues to give. Can't wait to visit...T-T-Texas!

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    1. It really is so weird to wake up in the night on one of my bathroom breaks, and still just marvel at the prettiness of my bathroom. Like a nice hotel! Ha! That's what goes through my head.

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  3. Susie: I understand your thoughts about feeling alone in that move. Myexperience about feeling alone have been in other areas of my life. But God has the final word. Praise Him for leading you and your husband to a place of safety and beauty.

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    1. Yes, I am so thankful that God was merciful to us and watched over us even when we felt alone.

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  4. Love this. Love that you didn't know what you were doing but took the risk and He met you in exceeding abundance, beyond all you asked or imagined. You just hoped it would work out and He was working to bless you! What a beautiful story, complete with a pool (the only part I MIGHT be a bit envious about).

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    1. Yep, we are blessed by His graciousness in the middle of our confusion and lack of faith. But that's what grace is sometimes isn't it?

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  5. Amazing how He always knows just what we need when we need it. He is never a moment too soon or too late. You stepped out in faith and have been greatly rewarded. Amazing how that always works.

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    1. Knowing that He is always on time would be great while you are struggling through a situation that feels unending. It sure does not FEEL like it is true sometimes. Another example of how my mind works very differently from His.

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  6. So I've been ruminating about feeling purposeless in His purpose and this blog post helps me articulate what I've been trying to bring together in to cohesive thoughts. These seasons sometimes seem to happen often as is the case for me/us right now. Blessings to you for sharing this randomness which wasn't really random at all.

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    1. Oh Nylse, thanks so much for letting me know that this post made a difference for you. Maybe it was meant just for you! As Christians we often feel like we should always FEEL that God is directing our paths and we tend to freeze up or blame the devil if we do not feel God's hand on us. BUT, as evidenced in this story and so many others, God may be directing us even when we have no clue that he is that close to our choices and moves. Thanks for coming by!

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