Friday, July 31, 2015
Ignoring The Negative
My hands are full as I make my way out to the pool in my backyard. As usual I automatically say aloud, "Yikes, it's hot out here!" I don't know when the Texas heat is going to feel normal to me. Why does it continually shock me?
I put my water, book and towel on the patio table and position my sun visor to protect my face, and in I go. Aaah, so delish Every. Single. Time. As I described for you back here. My muscles begin to relax already and I take deep breaths and smile big.
In my last post I stayed in the positive mode and did not tell you about another aspect of having my very own swimming pool. If I swim on a day when I am home alone and I am not hosting my kids and grandson or a friend, I get these guilty thoughts that bug me as I try to enjoy this blessing.
The thoughts sound kinda like this..."Why are you wasting time like this? You do not deserve this pool. Your Hubs is working hard and here you are playing. You should be inside writing or cleaning or visiting orphans somewhere. You have forgotten something more important that needs to be done and here you are doing nothing......"
You get the drift right?
These "...wait for the other shoe to drop." thoughts are as annoying as the wasps that also love my pool. Every single time I swim in mid-day they hover and land on the water and just dare me to swish them away so they will have an excuse to attack. So I try to ignore them. If giving them too much attention angers them, I will simply pretend they are not there. The thoughts AND the wasps.
But very often, the wasps rob me of my relaxation and I stomp angrily back into the safety of my house. I mean who could close their eyes and truly relax while those little stingers hover above you? So, they often win.
I successfully ignored both the wasps and the "impending doom" thoughts the other day. I told myself that I had every right to be out here enjoying my yard and that the days of feeling guilty about EVERY LITTLE THING are over! I floated around and swam for only about 15 minutes, but it felt great and rejuvenated me to get back to work.
I toweled off next to the patio table and gathered my things up to go back in the house. But I couldn't find my phone! I knew I had it when I came outside, where was it?
Suddenly I KNEW. Because my hands were full when I came outside, I had slipped my phone into the front of my swimsuit.
And I swam with my little phone inside my suit!
The moral of my story is that SOMETIMES those nagging little negative thoughts have a very real and important message for you and they should not be ignored.
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