Sunday, January 8, 2017

Number One Blogging Rule



I am doing something that is probably NUMBER ONE on the official "Do Not Do" list for bloggers; I am blogging without a plan or direction or message for this post. Bad bad blogger lady! I just feel like writing and since I haven't talked to you here in a while, here I am. Who knows where this will go?

It is a cold-ish Sunday afternoon here in North Texas. 42 degrees is NOT cold according to most of you, but I will just say that the tiny bit of snow from 2 days ago is still visible in the shady sections of my yard. So there.

My dog, Layla is curled up in a tight ball next to me on the couch and my legs are wrapped in a comfy blanket, stretched out making a bridge to the coffee table. I am so ready for Christmas Break to be over. My preschool closed for 3 weeks and I miss the kids, teachers and challenge. Christmas was wonderful, but staying home all day everyday is not a place I want to go back to.

Starting this "little" job at the preschool one block away from my house has changed my life. Very unexpectedly. You guys, I published a book in February and thought it would change my life...it did not...not at all. But this 2 days a week preschool teaching job has changed me and how I see myself.

I do not know how to explain it and I am not sure that I should try. There are many aspects of this change that I feel inside. I love the challenge of this new adventure. It requires all of me. This is not the kind of position that one can do halfway. At least I know that I can't. Walking into a room with a dozen two year olds and staying there for 5 hours requires planning, resources, energy and lots of love.

I've had good days and bad days. I've had more than one day when my truck drive home was full of tears and self doubt. I have dragged myself into my home, plopped down on the couch and not moved for hours. Other days I have come home and immediately spent the next 4 hours working on plans for my next day with the students. Physically and emotionally this job has drained me. But creatively it has energized me.

I am crazy about researching for lesson plans and new art projects. It fills my thoughts at night when I should be sleeping. Slipping out of bed and down the hall to my desk in the middle of the night has happened more than once. I know, crazy huh? There may or may not be a small stockpile of empty toilet paper rolls in our spare room closet. I know why teachers become hoarders, can happen so easily.

I love the people I get to work with! They are funny, creative and talented women. It has been difficult to make friends in a new state and these women are definitely counted as friends now. Hubs was shocked at how often my phone started binging away with multiple texts from day one at this job. I love that! I like who I am with them. They bring out my best and I feel strong and confident around them. This has changed me.

Another surprisingly simple change has been the act of making my own money. What a difference  it makes after years of "our money". I actually bought a book the other day without one bit of discussion! Ha! My paycheck is very small, but it's mine. :)

Physically, this job has been good for me. Yes, my feet hurt and my back aches, but I have also lost a little bit of weight, yay! Since I am away from home and my couch so many hours a day, snacking is not happening and I am more active. When we go back after the break, our classroom is now up a flight of stairs so I am excited about getting into better shape. At 61 this can only be a good thing!

Maybe that last line is the point of this post. I will be 62 next month. SIXTY-TWO! My identity has been altered once again and my heart is happy to embrace whatever is next for me. Yes, I am still a writer, even an author, but a writer needs to live in order to produce a reason to write. Most writers dream of quitting their day job and giving themselves completely to the craft. But for me, it was a negative experience to be alone too much. Too much introspection led to too much worry and anxiety. 

At the doorstep to 62 I am full of creative ideas, sticky hugs and new friends to add to the old. It's all good for the recovering church lady these days and i am thrilled to be able to report that!

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11 comments:

  1. So cool, Susie! Life continues. Cool stuff still happens!

    "They still bear fruit in old age; they are ever full of sap and green..." Psalm 92:14

    I am pretty sure I have posted this very same verse on your blog before, maybe more than once. I don't mean to keep saying to word old, or green for that matter, but rather to scream with joy that there is still stuff to do! :) I am a homeschool Mom, soon to be part-time taker carer of my wonderful grand-nephew while his Mom returns to work, and...writer. Right, can I say that? ;-) Anyway, I have wondered what I will do and am I doing enough and what does the future hold. But-- suddenly -- I get to take care of a new baby grand-nephew and, well, I feel like you describe with your new job.

    Yay!

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    1. Yes, you get it! As you know I also watch my toddler grandson twice a week and that is what told me I could work in a preschool. Watching Max gives me so much happiness and purpose! I am happy for you!

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  2. I am truly happy for you...even though I miss our almost daily conversation over blogs and journals, I know that this is where God wants you to be...and that makes me feel really happy for you. I know in my heart that this is an answer to prayer...yours and mine. I prayed that God would lead you to some good friends and a way to reach out in your new world...and He did exactly that! I can only imagine what a blessing you are to those precious 2 year olds...as well as to the other women who are working with you. Thank you for expressing all of this so beautifully...it truly encourages my heart to see what God has done for you!!!

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    1. Thanks for praying along with me my friend! He heard and put me right in the middle of 5 other talented & funny teachers, one refreshing and delightful Director, a sassy Administrator and a gracious lady Pastor! God os so good to me!

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  3. How fun to work in a preschool. Blog on my friend, without a plan. Those are the best kind I think :)

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    1. Thanks Barbie, it really is a fun place to work and i agree that the spontaneous blog posts are often the most interesting.

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  4. Susie: My best friend worked in pre-school/daycare settings for several years. When we have been out or at an event, some GROWN person has remembered her from when they were small children. Between her working in that field and the positions she has held in Children's Ministries, she has worked with children about 40 years. Back when our son was in first grade, she watched him for us in the afternoons. She will be a septuagenarian this August and still teaches a pre-school Sunday school class at our church. God has given you this gift. I know you will use it for His glory.

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    1. Thank you Celeste. I have always loved working with kids, starting with a Sunday school class as a teen, children's church for many years and in a few preschools over the years. They are so open and ready to laugh.

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  5. I hope you and yours had a very MERRY CHRISTMAS and are having a very HAPPY NEW YEAR. May we display your linked header on our new site directory, SiteHoundSniffs.com? As it is now, the site title (linked back to its home page) is listed, and we think displaying the linked header will attract more attention.

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    1. Thank you so very much for giving permission. You can see your linked header under All, Beliefs, Literary and the United States. If you could say something (preferably good) about SiteHoundSniffs.com here and there, we would greatly appreciate it.

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